How many kilobytes can your heart hold?

Starting tomorrow, I will be on training at work for 6-7 weeks. I was really surprised when I was chosen to undergo training (for more responsibility lol), because from what I have observed, they choose the people with good stats. I know I should be happy about this, but at the back of my mind, I wish I could back out… More responsibilities = more stress = less lazy time. Haha. Kidding aside, it’s March and this is the month for final exams at school… I can’t even remember the last time that I slept for more than five hours.

THAT MOMENT WHEN YOU WROTE A LONG POST THAT YOU HAVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT THE WHOLE DAY, ONLY TO LOSE IT IN ONE CLICK BECAUSE YOU ACCIDENTALLY PRESS THE DELETE BUTTON

THIS SHOULD HAVE BEEN A WELL-THOUGHT POST… OH WELL.

1. I watched a replay (I think) of a TV special last night entitled “Harry Potter: 50 Greatest Moments”. I almost shed tears after I realized again that the story has ended :( My brother also watched it and we started talking about the possibility of a new series of Harry Potter movies in the future. It could be something about the trio’s children, or the Marauders, or new characters. J.K. Rowling please make this happen!

2. I saw news last night about an eight-year old child who was tortured by her own relatives (aunt and uncle). They poured boiling water on her body, hit her with a hammer, cut her lips with knife, and other horrible things. I felt compassion for the child. Why do people like them (the aunt and uncle) exist? The child was full of blood and was brought to the hospital by a neighbor. I wanted to turn off the television but I also wanted to see the face of the aunt and the uncle. I’m out of words for this kind of cruelty. This is really stomach-turning.

3. I checked Facebook a few minutes ago and saw that one of my friends shared photos that depict extreme graphic violence — photos of decaying bodies of massacre/murder victims, dead naked bodies of raped girls, etc. What the hell. For some reason, I had to click the photos one by one which was so annoying because it also meant that I was forced to view the photo before being able to report it. For some reason, there is no report button/link for albums. I had to click the photos one by one which was so annoying because it also meant that I was forced to view the photo before being able to report it. Ugh.

1. I feel so sleepy. Am I really destined to wake up early for other people? *sigh*

2. I saw news last night about AirPhil Express’ delayed flight (14 hours) that caused passengers to rage at the poor AirPhil employees. They were mad because they didn’t even get food or hotel rooms where they can stay. I really feel bad for what they experienced, but on the other hand, I also pity the poor AirPhil employees who had to face the angry and enraged passengers. Although it wasn’t the employees’ fault, they had no choice but to face the irate customers. It reminds me of my days as a customer service representative.

3. Next week, I will probably move in to a dorm near my college and my workplace. The downside is that I can’t go online very often. My desktop computer’s screen stopped working a month ago and I don’t have plans of buying a new one, because I’m saving up for a laptop. Until I buy one, I won’t have a computer at the dorm where I will live. I’m not bothered by it, though. I probably won’t miss the internet because I’ll be too tired from working and studying.

4. This was my plan: find a part-time job that pays better than my home based freelance work, and then find a dorm near my college. I already accomplished the first one, and the next one will be accomplished next week. Yay!

5. I was at Makati’s business district. I was there with a friend until late at night and most of the time, we were walking around while talking to each other. We decided to buy ice cream sundaes for ourselves and continued walking. Since we were eating ice cream, we weren’t talking a lot, and I started listening to music. It felt like we were in a music video lol.

6. LSS: Sariwain by Dream Carousel. Their vocalist, Jam Hilario, is my friend. May album na sila, yehey! Check their album (These Little Things) sampler here. They’re good, I promise. :)
Gigs:
Oct. 22 - Long-Set-Saturdays @ Arvis Resto Bar, Malolos, 8PM
Oct. 28 - Fright Fest: A Rockin’ Halloween Concert @Eastwood Citywalk 2
Oct. 29 - The Recovery Room, Malolos, 9PM
Ako na taga-promote haha.

7. Dear you: please take away all of my fears.

8. I won’t be able to watch Jason Mraz’ concert on October 30 :( It was a choice between Mraz and three very close friends that I haven’t seen for a long time. We all have work and so it’s really difficult to set a schedule for us to see each other. Oh Mraz.. I hope you come back.

I really want to believe in love again.

Have you ever woken up in the middle of the night and suddenly have thoughts about your life that you will never think of during the day?

Ever since my computer’s monitor stopped working last Tuesday, I often wake up in the middle of the night to use the laptop, since my brother and my mother use it during the day. Whenever I wake up in the middle of the night, I start thinking about my life. I start worrying that I would get old without accomplishing anything significant. I would count the number of years that I have left in college, and then think about what’s going to happen after that, and think about the possible career paths that I can take, and think if I will get married or not, and think if I will have children someday, and then I would get sad because it seems that I don’t have enough time to do everything that I want.

I would usually go back to sleep at 2 or 3 AM after checking my email, Facebook, Tumblr and Pottermore (haha). When I wake up again, all of those thoughts would vanish from my mind.

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I think my life is too normal right now. No new stuff, nothing special, and I like it that way.

I really didn’t miss anything significant — it’s just that when my mind is idle (like today), I start thinking of you. Thoughts that I have buried at the back of my head start coming back.

I need to go back to being busy in three, two, one…